Yesterday my beanie finally arrived. I bought dark red it's similar to maroon colour

This was in the plastic bag LOL

Selfies with the beanie HEHE 

Looks like this was the only photo i smiled nicely with ;B FYI i look freaking fat cause of my cheeks T^T

'LONELY PEOPLE NEVER FORGET'

 Today is the first day of a new month OCTOBER 

My eyes look small and emo LOL i was sleepy and tired but i still took selfie because i love to camwhore.

I really hate my cheeks is so freaking chubby and fat. It looks so fat that most of my photos turn out unglamorous. 2 days ago i was doing my makeup and i drew my eyeliner unevenly. I used a tissue and rub it away. After a few rubs, it became so painful due to friction and now my left eye look like i just got a punch by someone. My friends said i look so ahlian with that injury on my eye case it looks as if i drew a star on my left eye. Do you think i wanted that? HAHA really annoying with that injury. Sometimes i even forgotten there was an injury and that i rubbed it so hard that it bleed or even when i am washing my face. Hate that thing on my face really no face to meet anyone. 

Today was a horrible n a happy day. A few minutes ago HAPPYPILL like a finally texted me. We fought with each other throwing our anger at each other. It wasn't really much of anger but he sounds really angry. Now we clear back to normal texting and sending emoji's to each other( LIKE A FINALLY) because when he was sick he rarely sent me emoji's he just gave me faves like ':)' YOU CANT BE SERIOUS. It was really upsetting when he actually said he wanted to end our conversation because i've changed. Well but now we are back to normal. The way we chat now was just like the first day we talked to each other on twitter ✌️

Just hope that the conversation continues and it won't end so quickly cause if it does i will kill him (joking) ;>

The real HAPPYPILL is back. YAY OR NAY~ HAHAHAHAHAAHAHA 

Yesterday during the evening my parents decided to cycle to punggol park and have out dinner there but i decided not to tag along because i'm not really interested in cycling so i decided to have dinner at whitesands with my brother ( friends) 

We ate TOMODACHI at the second level. He decide to eat that cause there wasn't any better choice to eat. I ordered spaghetti and he ordered the same but with an additional japanese fish or something i'm not quite sure. 

After dinner he said he wanted to come my house i was shock and kept whining. I told him to stay at my house downstairs the playground and i was having high tide . I had so much fun at the playground with him. I know it seems childish but YOLO haha ;) 

Today was one of the happiest day and a sad day for me.

 

The happy thing was i got to meet up with my brother after such a long time of not meeting him and miss him lots cause today he was going for his NS check-up and was teasing him about his hair going botak ><. We met up at tamp mall to have our breakfast at kopitiam with my best friend fion and her boyfriend. They were such lovely couples. After eating we went to walk around tamp mall and went to the basement. Suddenly my best friends boyfriend asked one of the shop if they are hiring and the store owner was not clear but she gave me and application form till fill in the particulars and the store was an ice cream shop. While i was writing my particulars he went to see my address and name how playful and kept calling my real name D; i pushed him away many times cause it was really embarrassing. It took me about 10-15 minutes just to write the particulars cause i was really bad at understanding the english. In a few minutes time he said he needed to leave cause he was afraid that he might arrive late for his NS checkup but he was half an hour early. He cabbed there wasting money >< 

The sad thing was that MY HAPPYPILL IS SICK! I was really upset that i can't seem to do anything to help him. He's reply was really cold and i cant seem to cheer him up. He explained to me that he doesn't have the energy to talk thats was why he was so cold to me ;(. I thought he didn't want to talk to me anymore which will make me very upset ;( i really miss the times where we had sent emoji's to each other and playing jokes with each other. That was really memorable and the first day he talked to me was so funny xD 

These days i sent him long morning and night messages. Just hope that i could meetup real soon with him although i didn't met up with him before. Just wondering how he would look like in real life ;B Now i just really really hope that he could recover faster and be my HAPPYPILL again, making me laugh and smile with his messages and emoji's :'D 

A few days ago i followed this guy on twitter and i didnt expect him to tweet to me and follow back. From then on we started to chat with each other and he made me laugh so i decided to name him HAPPY PILL. We chatted alot and there was once i called him mad so he insisted on asking me to write an apology text to him and so i did ><

We chatted alot in a day and it was pretty good he was clarifying things with me which i didnt't ask. He was funny xD . During the night we sent each other a really long goodnight text. It was really long and he said he would write a longer goodnight text than me so i wrote a super long text to disturb him xD

Today he insisted me on blogging about him and i did if not he wants me to write a long text for him again ><. 

On the bus when i'm on my way home we was chatting about relationship problems we had in the past. It was a good conversation cause now i know more about his character and personalities i guess? While i was walking back home he suddenly called me i was pretty shock :O i didn't expect him to call me and so i answered lo

Although it was a short call but his voice is nice haha i have no idea why i'm saying that. He's just like a little baby need someone to take care of when his sick *laughs* resembles a little baby boy uh xD. He is a really good friend/brother to have or to make friends with :) 

Yesterday at night i went to collect my fisheye lens 3 in 1 for $22 and i find it quite worth so i decided to buy. It looks like this in the box 

When i collect it i started to cam like a boss 😁

IT WAS FABULOUS <3 no idea how much i love it amd haunting for it since a few months back 

I was bored while studying so i decided to cam :3. Well tomorrow is my End Of Year examination. I spend the weekends studying hard just hoping that what went in my brain doesn't come out on the day itself during exam ><. I was suppose to have a study date with Fion today but i left my wallet in my dad's car and he went out so i can't go out and have a study date ;( . So today i have to spend the whole day at home studying by myself while my sister's boyfriend is coming soon. 

Byeeee~ back to studying what a nerd me :B 

Imaginations

Giving up wasn't easy as it seems. Telling your friends to move on when there were heart bream may seems easy for me, but the true is it wasn't easy at all when it happen to me. It took me a few months to give up on him i've always said i can't give up and i really can't .

Who wouldn't want such relationships like this? Sweet, loving, adorable, cute, perfect match? Everyone would want such relationships like this. The matter is, do your opposite sex take you seriously? As the one and only girl he would love? Having a long lasting relationship with you till marriage, death? Even long distance could last within them. Kissing, cuddling, having so much fun with each other, stay over at each others house just like married couples. Sometimes it's the song that gave me flashback, memories we had.

Mind always imagining of stuffs that wouldn't happen in reality with you. I know it's impossible between us even in future. Shouldn't put much hope on him.Well this is time where i am going to give up totally and treat him just like brother ;) only siblings love between us.

It's really hard to find someone you could share your feelings to when your having ups and downs. Wanna know what i do? I tear sometimes but not every time, i scream out of the windows to release out the sadness, talk to my sister or mum. If i were to have a boyfriend, a new crush, means i have given up on him which i hope it would be better for me. But i will always remember him as my one and only brother. I'm really glad that i met him. If i hadn't met him, i would know what it feels like to love someone so deeply with my heart. Many people say feelings last longer than relationship which i really agree on that. To me loving someone was easy but forgetting/losing feelings for them is really hard. Just hope i could do it ;D